Kick It Down

My Christmas tree is still up, folks.  

I've been playing with my new toy.

You can listen to some songs and download them for free!

Hudson Roar

I am going to record at a real studio when I have the time.

Later this month or early February I'm hoping.

In the meantime-  my makeshift kitchen MacBook Air Garageband studio it is!

I'm writing new songs. 

I don't want to sound all singer/songwriter-y.

I mean, I think I always will a little bit but I don't want that to be my "genre."

Sometimes I think I want to find people to play with me.

Other times I remember that everyone who has ever played in a band with me says I'm difficult.

I think I'm a little bossy sometimes.

Or all the times.

It's just that I don't like wasting time, I just want to get down to bizniz.

I'm currently figuring out how to set up to play these songs by myself with my computer, keyboard, and guitar.

I'm thinking my ukulele needs to make an appearance at some point.

Or maybe I'll just record all the parts myself and leave it at that.

No shows.

We'll see.

And hey, Haters.

I didn't get a new guitar for Christmas.

I posted a picture of my brother's new, awesome guitar and people thought I got a new Gretsch.

I can barely play the one I have.

So thank you for calling me a spoiled brat.

I am spoiled.

I'm not denying it or apologizing for it. 

I also appreciate everything I have and I'm more worried about being a kind human and a good friend than I am about the mean things you say about me.

I've been struggling with relationships lately.  Some of my friends have expressed their jealousy of my lifestyle and I guess I don't understand what the hell that means.  I'm 30 years old.  I'm not playing who has the better whatever with anyone.  I refuse to feel bad that I have a new car and, you know, whatever else it is that makes people mad that I have.  Husband, Jack and I try to enjoy our life everyday.  Husband works very, very hard everyday- it's 24/7 at his job- and on top of that, we are really, really lucky.  We go out occasionally but mostly like to stay home, play with toys, watch Thunder games, cook, watch kids movies, and hang out with a few close friends.  That's what happens when you have a kid, you guys.  We're tired all the time.  Dude, we have a mortgage, piles of laundry, busy schedules, and we're currently in the middle of a potty training crisis.  In no way do I think my life (life with a kid) is more important than anyone else's life (life without a kid.)  It's just different.  So realize that and quit treating me like I'm a stuck up asshole.  I'm not.  I've only ever tried to be kind, caring, and non-judgemental towards the people I love and admire.  Lately it seems I've been mistaken about other people's view of my friendship.  I'm always here when you have problems and jobs and boys and girls to cry about-  but you know-  I'm here when you aren't crying and sad too.  I clean up poopy Jack diapers, ok?  I'm not here to clean up everyone else's shit.  

Thanks for listening, guys.  The last thing I wish to say about this is-  I'm happy.  So be happy for me.  I won't be here for you forever, my sweets.  

I think I need to get out more and make some new friends.  

That reminds me-  Ashley, my dear -  we need to sign up for yoga!  (I'm thinking maybe if I put it out there, in publictheinternetwhatever, I won't back out of it.)  

I'll get back to making sweet music magic.

Have a lovely day and remember to be thankful and kind.

Because it's just nice.

♥ jp

don't be stupen.

Jack is eating eggs and cheerios while he watches a show about dancing potatoes.

It's "small potatoes" on a stage, all in costume, doing musical theater with english accents.

They don't have arms, duh.

Kid shows are so bizarre.

Lately there have been lots of rumblings about having babies.  Not from me-  from friends.  I've had a few emails and conversations about the pros and cons of being a parent.  Pro-  babies love you unconditionally and you'll have someone to do the dishes in 10ish years.  Con-  babies are expensive and they don't always listen to you or wear what you want them to wear.  Pleeeease wear this awesome sweater jacket, this hat, and these cool shoes.  Ok.  Fine.  Wear the spiderman tshirt, fireman rain jacket, shorts, cowboy boots, and your camo baseball cap with the deer on it.  This kid...

More pros-  They like to snuggle.  Babies smell SO GOOD.  They get excited about things like bubble wrap and play doh.  They remind you to have fun.  Your priorities change in a good way.  You don't care about the dumb drama that happens around you because you've got bigger problems-  like having a baby with a high fever who's puking in your hair.  Toddlers tell you they love you and give kisses and hugs.  You suddenly have a bond with every mother you encounter because she's had a kid throw down in public before too.  Kids are the funniest people you will ever know.  Getting handmade presents is the best ever.  Holidays are much more fun with kids around.  

More cons-  Public fits.  Eventually you get used to it-  when you have kids, you just don't feel embarrassment like you used to.  Potty training sucks.  They grow so fast that you're constantly buying clothes.  Learning to talk and communicate is frustrating for you and your kid and it can cause major baby (and mommy) meltdowns.  They talk back.  The other day, Jack told me that I'm stupen. Whew... at least I'm just stupen...  You constantly wonder-  where did they learn that?!

Things to remember-  Pajamas run small-  they're supposed to fit snug so the kid doesn't get tangled in the night but it's stupid how fast they outgrow their jams.  Bottle warmers are life savers.  Even if you breastfeed and pump.  We had one with a built in cooler to store 2 bottles for nighttime feedings so you don't even have to leave your bedroom.  Time out as punishment is a lot harder than you think.  Jack doesn't really care and they don't really work for him.  Try directing your kid's attention to something fun and constructive when they're being bad.  Remember when you're pregnant that babies sometimes want out early and unexpectedly. Also remember, if that happens, don't be in denial-  just go to the hospital so you aren't in labor for 12 hours at home- alone.  

Look, I don't care if you have babies or don't have babies.  I'm just saying if you decide to, don't be scared.  It's really, really hard but very rewarding.  It's a lot easier than i thought it would be and a lot harder too.  

It's so important for your sanity to keep some things for yourself.  Keep a shred of your social life intact.  Keep your friends close, you'll need them to cry to when you're crazy stressed out and zombie tired.  We let Jack stay overnight with his grandparents early on when he was just a couple of months old.  It's good for you and baby to detach from each other every once in a while if you're lucky enough to have a supportive family like we are-  you don't want to be a crazy mommy (or daddy) and you want baby to be around family.  I really feel like that's the key to our happiness around here- I still play shows with my band, Husband still golfs, and we still go out for nights on the town together.

"SNEEZE!!!" goes the baby.

"Bless you" goes the mommy.

"Yes, bless me" says the baby talking to himself.

♥ jp

busy.

Baby Jack goes to the new outlet mall with Mommy and Daddy.

Daddy forgot to pack the stroller.

Tantrum.

Baby rides the firetruck 2 times.

Tantrum.

Mommy, Daddy, and Baby leave 20 minutes after arriving.

He just looked so happy and cute on the truck though.

Friday, Jack went to my mom's for the evening.  Husband and I wandered around the local Friday night art walk on Main Street.  Met up with some friends here and some friends there. 

Husband gets serious at Steak 'n Shake.

Today is my best friend's birthday.  I don't think she reads this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYWAY, ANNA HESTON.  I love you and you are pretty.  

The weekend was very laid back.  Jack started showing signs of sickness on Saturday but he was looking forward to going to my in-laws and I couldn't tell him no.  He was worse on Sunday and went to see Doc down there to get checked out.  He sounds like a baby seal.

Went to OKC on Saturday night to meet up with friends for a late dinner and drinks.  Ate too much and ended up going home early.  Husband was very grumpy but think it was because he was too full to drink beer.  

Spent Sunday with my mommy.

Today.

Took apart the high chair and fixed it all by myself.

Took the crib apart and turned it into a toddler bed all by myself.

Drinking lots of chai green tea with soy milk today.

Did something to my lower back and it hurts to move.

"did something" means carrying around a 35 pound baby.

Trying to eat healthy this week and Husband brought home red velvet cake last night.

Why would you do this to me.

Doing 30 mins of dance cardio and TAM iron man 2 videos.

Holy workout, it hurts.

Getting a costume idea on lock down for a 2 year old is very difficult.

Currently in the middle of a tea par par, watching Jack pour water from one cup to another cup.

Over and over. 

Water everywhere.

So busy this week.  Show Friday to look forward to.

♥ jp

oklahoma breakdown.

Friday:

Lunch with Hannah!

Had 2 drinks with BFF Dave and it was awesome.

Much needed, much appreciated.

We made up a new game called Conspiracy Theory.

I will never tell you how to play it.

maybe i'll tell Marisa, she'll get it.

A beer on the back porch with Husband.

Asleep early.  Low key.  Perfect.

Hannah (sister-in-law) flew back from L.A. for the weekend.  I can't tell you how good it was to see her!  I knew I'd miss them- but a couple of times a week it really hits me and hurts my soul.  I've never been this far away from my brother for this long in my entire life.  He's only a year older and we've always taken care of each other, had the same friends, and played music together.  Both of my brothers and their ladies sound like they're doing really well and are adjusting to life out west.  I really hope I can visit soon.  Hannah's 30th birthday is in October and I'd love to celebrate with them but not sure we'll make it out by then.  Sigh.  remember, you are always welcome to donate to the fly-us-to-LA fund.

Jack was very excited to see Aunt Hannah too.

Saturday:

STEP AWAY FROM THE GOLD SHORTS.  

Hey, I know.

Lunch with mom & Hannah.

Dustbowl Arts Market with my boys.

Jack went to play at my mom's.

Dinner at Blu with Husband.

A drink at the Library with Husband and J. Rider.

A drink at La Luna with Husband, J. Rider, Ty, and Ashley.

I met some new friends. 

Go Me!

Sunday:

We all sleep in!

Mama and I saw The Help.

It was good.

We had dinner with my father-in-law.

I did a little recording for no reason whatsoever.

Lovely weekend.  Can't wait for next weekend. 

♥  jp

blue dark.

Jack is having an afternoon snooze and I told myself I would do my workout now but instead I'm on my MacBook Air, watching old episodes of Kourtney and Khloe Take Miami and eating a graham cracker.  Oh, and also enjoying a ice cold glass of detox water drink stuff- I've been downing it all week.  60 ounces of water with 2 tablespoons of sugar-free cranberry juice, 1 tablespoon of lemon juice and a bag of dandelion root tea.  It tastes like lemon water with an after taste of shit.  Who in the hell drinks dandelion root tea?  Those who wish to promote healthy liver function or those (like me) who wish to banish excess water weight.  Jillian Michaels seems to think if you drink it for 7 days, you'll lose 5ish pounds of water weight.  We'll see.  Jillian is evil and very well could be playing a trick on me.  

I used to cook almost every evening but this summer it's just been too hot.  I make things with cheese, flour, heavy cream, pasta, hearty soups, cornbread, curry, and more cheese.  Too hot to eat these things.  Last night I made tortellini with and basil artichoke garlic sauce for the boys.  I had a lovely kale salad with lemon.  This week I also made broccoli with toasted pine nuts and lemon, roasted garlic and olive oil, sauteed spinach, carmelized baby carrots, garlic bread, and chicken.  Now we know that Jack LOVES broccoli.  It's funny the things that make me happy these days.  

I need a night.  Like at the Mont or something.  Margaritas, swirls, club specials, wine.  I don't suggest all in one night, i'm sure i've done it before though.  I need to wear something cute, take my hair out of this ponytail and meet up with friends or a friend.  Husband would be invited but someone's got to watch the baby.  This pretend night would not involve any talk about boy/girl drama, what you do at work that nobody cares about, no baby talk, and no bullshit in general.  Topics to consider: music, fashion, funny internet things, Ryan Gosling's body, and making fun of people.  I need to be around fun and funny people.  I used to get all my fun from my BFF, Dave, but he's married and a stay at home daddy now so he's very, very busy.  although he does text me something hilarious at least once a day or every other day.  OR.  I need people to play music with.  Just hanging out, playing some jams on the back porch.  I used to have friends to do that with but they've decided that I'm not cool anymore or something.  

This blog has turned into a desperate cry for friends or something sad.  It has, hasn't it?  I have friends, I just never see anyone.  Everyone is busy.  Everyone lives far away.  I can't go out without a babysitter.  And my friends apparently think i'm the most awkward person on the face of the planet.  Maybe I'm not that awkward, maybe I don't know how to have a conversation that is solely about you, your job, your life, your problems and how I can help you fix them.  I'm that friend, the one who takes care of everyone but the one nobody invites out to do the fun stuff.  The one that friends only call when they're driving in their car because they have absolutely nothing else to do.  Feeling sorry for yourself seems to be the only reasonable thing to do when you're drinking this detox water stuff.  

And to be fair, I've been missing my brothers, Hannah, and my dad a lot lately so maybe that's the source of my loneliness.  Or, you know, maybe not.  maybe it's you, not me.

Don't worry, I'm not sad and depressed or anything, it's more like I'm Patrick Swayze in Ghost.  Jack is Whoopi Goldberg because he's the only person who knows i'm here.  That would make my friends Demi Moore.  Only 2 of my friends read this stuff, one of which is living in Mexico and the other one-  I see her often and she's fabulous.  She just babysat Jack the other night.  Eternally grateful.

Time to wake the chicken.  Have a nice Thursday and think of me while you're sipping your drinks in good company.  Be nice to your friends.  Brush your teeth before you go to bed.  Don't try this detox drink until I'm done-  there's no sense in both of us suffering until we know if it works.  Now that's a true friend.  Now, excuse me, I have to pee for the 10,000th time today.  Water, green tea, detox water, water, green tea, detox water, repeat.

♥  jp
 ps-  this is how i make myself laugh most days.  ----> whenparentstext.com

parties every night.

He said he was driving like Daddy and then answered his pretend phone while honking the horn.  He was a little tired to be in a restaurant so I brought him out to the truck to pretend drive.  Today we played, we watched a movie, we had dinner, we shared a little bit of cheesecake, and we played with trucks.  It's been a nice Sunday but I wish Husband were here to hang out with us.  He's umpiring a game but should be back soon.  

Before the weekend started, I did my own nails.  This is the sort of thing that happens when I get bored.  I liked it!  They were pretty much ruined after my show on Friday night but it was super easy to do so I'll be doing some experimenting. 

Remember the gold shorts?  They finally made an appearance this weekend.  I was going to wear them to the show but decided to wear a dress instead. 

I went Forever 21 (forever 30?) shopping and couldn't decide if I liked this top or not so I didn't get it.  Still undecided so that probably means I made the right decision.  (Until fall rolls around and I remember that I didn't buy this and need it.)

I definitely didn't buy this electric yellow cheetah print tank top.  I thought-  if I were Jack, would I be embarrassed of my mom?  Yes.  Probably.  So I put it back.  The sacrifices we make...

I was on a hunt in my closet to find something to wear to my show when I found this dress.  I bought it at Lucca months ago to wear to some sort of event but never wore it.  How did I forget about this fantastic dress?  No, you can't wear a bra with it and yes, it shows a little side boob.  So what.

What a great turn out we had!  We played some new songs too.  It just feels so good to play.  We're going to be featured in another magazine-  not sure when but you'll hear about it on here at some point.  We're getting new merch, our album will finally be on itunes, and we'll be playing out of state a lot more this fall.  Lots to look forward to.

Ryan Lawson took this photo of us. 

The birthday party we hosted turned out great.  Mostly people I didn't know but everyone was super nice and respectful of our home.  We didn't have much to clean up at the end of the night.  The food was a big hit and the margarita machine was pretty cool.  I mostly drank cups and cups of water all weekend long so I may open that bottle of champagne that was left here.  *Kelli, I'll get you back, girl!  Mama needs a little Sunday drink to go with new episodes of Keeping Up with the Kardashians and Entourage.  Did you know that I eat a little popcorn every single night?  Champagne is a nice little treat to add to my treat.  *popcorn is not TAM approved but she'll have to deal with it!

Oh yeah, I ended up wearing the gold shorts, a t-shirt and black velvet heels to the party.  Because you care so much about what I wear in my own house and stuff.  I mean, you know...

Husband has liked falling asleep outside lately.  This was after everyone left the party.  It took me a while to wake him.  One time I left him out there because I could not, for the life of me, get him to come to bed!  Pretty funny.  

Jack doesn't have school all week so we'll be playing all day, every day!  I'm sure I'll have a ton of cute photos of him to post soon.  Have a lovely week.

♥ jp

more than fame & gold.

Who wants to ride pone pones with me?  Do you know how to row?  I don't but I saw a groupon for a rowing class and it looks fun.  Would you like to do some dance cardio with me?  Some ballet stuff?  Um.  Can you sew?  i love to sew and i don't know anyone else who owns a sewing machine or knows how to use one.  Would you like to go to lunch?  Shopping?  I know.  Let's go to happy hour.  well, ok.  i can't go to happy hour because i have a little boy.   We can plan a formal Christmas party!  Or something.  The dollar theater + wine is always a winner.  Or we can play guitar.  Do you know how to play the piano?  I think I could learn pretty fast and I have a really cool piano so can you teach me?  I want to get out and do something fun.  Are you free this evening?  Or tonight?  

Ok.  I don't hoard used bottles like a crazy lady but I sometimes use them as pretty little vessels for fresh flowers.  Husband likes to drink Jarritos and they'll be perfect for festive flowers for the birthday party we're throwing my homegirl, Kelli.  There will be fajitas, rice, beans, chips, dips, pinatas, margaritas, lights, actions, and cameras.  I'm pumped. 

Our show this weekend was SO MUCH FUN!  Sandy and Brooke got their fbombing groove back and it puts me in such a good mood.  Rehearsal tomorrow, show friday at The Blue Note in OKC.  

Completely obsessed with a few things lately.  

1.  Banana Republic's Mad Men collection.  I would like one of everything, please.

2.  I would like one of everything for Husband as well.  Do you know how hot he would look in either of these looks?  Swoon & sigh.

3.  Accessories.  Always a big fan of the skinny tie with a tie bar.  I gave Husband a really cool half inch tie bar last christmas.  I got it at The Tie Bar.  I love pearls, of course.  I actually have a bag that looks like this leopard print one except mine isn't from BR, I found it at Forever 21 months ago!  Score.  It was only around $25.  I have some really lovely bags but I hate to carry a super nice one if I know I'm going to be in a smokey bar all night so I have cool, inexpensive bags I buy specifically to take out in that situation.  Because I'm smart. 

4.  Completely in love with Lana Del Rey's hair.  It's 60's-ish dreamy angel hair.  I actually wear my hair in a similar style all the time but now that I'm obsessed with her, I make it a point to tease and spray everyday.

5.  I'm almost done with this post, I promise.  The video isn't that cool or anything but I love this song and it's been on repeat for a very long time.  Penny and the Quarters-  You and Me.  Buy it 4 real.

Ok DONE!  Have a lovely week.  I'm waiting on your calls, texts, messages, emails, tweets, messages in bottles, and carrier pigeons.  

♥  jp

wind doesn't carry.

This chicken isn't afraid to wear pink.  He looked very handsome for a wedding rehearsal and dinner.  The boys went out of town for the wedding festivities on Friday and returned on Sunday.  You know how much I love weddings so I was disappointed I couldn't make it but I had a busy weekend myself.  Band rehearsal on Friday.  Stayed out dancing with my bandmates. Fell into an accidental nap on Saturday evening and had to rush around to get ready for our show.  The show was so fun and I can't wait to play next Friday.  Saw tons of old friends and made some new ones.

Sunday morning I woke up early, cleaned the house, put away music equipment, and started a new song inspired by the genius of Lana Del Rey.  Thank you friend who introduced me to the girl with the cool songs and dreamy hair.  

I haven't been doing the mirror pics much lately.  I had one on this post but it just seems so dorky and vain and silly so I took it off.  AND put up this photo because it isn't ridiculous at all.   

I want tea.  And 5 Snickers.  And a glass of wine.  Rain.  Inspiration.  More girl time.  A fantastic new piece of clothing.  A happy baby on a Monday morning.  More time for music.  Motivation.  To win the lottery.  To visit my brothers.  And for my foot to stop hurting.

♥ jp

Tracy Anderson Madness

TAM=  Tracy Anderson Method

TRACY ANDERSON is a tiny, blonde fitness goddess.  She is very interactive with her clients and keeps her fans up to date through her website.  She puts out little webisodes, shares interviews and tips, and is just a badass in general.  There are several DVDs to choose from in her online store and she has a book called Tracy Anderson's 30 Day Method that can be purchased online or in most bookstores.  My story goes like this.

I'm not a tiny or a giant person, I'm 5 feet 7 inches tall and I have broad shoulders, a broad rib cage, long monkey arms and long legs.  I had a baby.  I gained almost 30 pounds.  Lost most of it easily after the baby was born but had zero tone and endurance after 11 months of sitting on my ass, eating bread and pasta.  I did P90X and liked it alright but I build muscle very quickly and I didn't like the bulk it gave me.  I did some Jillian Michaels stuff but we didn't get along very well.  Pilates next, which I loved but I get bored with easily.  I've done stability ball workouts, videos that use the big rubber band things, and yoga.  I have the attention span of a 3 year old so I like to change it up frequently.

I bought the TAM book first.  It comes with a meal plan, recipes and a DVD that includes 3 mat workouts and 2 dance cardio sequences.  The music sucks but I just mute it and make playlists on my ipod.  I lost a lot of weight the month I did the 30 day method.  It's pretty hard but worth it.

Tracy came out with the Metamorphosis series which is the holy grail of 90 day workout plans.  You choose which body type you are so it's not like a cookie cutter type series.  There are 4 DVDs with multiple sequences to follow.  Yes, it's hard.  Yes, some days you feel miserable.  Yes, you will see really fast results if you stick to it.  Yes, the dance cardio gets much easier with time.  Yes, you still feel ridiculous when someone walks in and catch you doing dance cardio.

Sometimes I follow the meal plan (thanks, Tracy, for not forgetting vegetarians!)  Sometimes I only do the workout 5 days a week instead of 6.  I don't always follow the program exactly like she urges you to but I'm only human and sometimes it's hard making time to do all of this crap.  Maybe if I had a nanny, a chef and a serene studio on my property like Gwyneth Paltrow, I could keep myself in check a little better.

Ok.  The meal plan pretty much sucks but if you follow it, you will be tiny like Tracy.  If you don't, you'll look more like me.  I don't own a juicer nor do I plan on owning one anytime soon so I replace the weird kale juice with Naked brand juice you can find at the grocery store.  Some of that stuff is high in calories so be careful which one you get.  I like Blue Machine.  If I don't have time to prepare gazpacho or sweet potato and corn pudding-  I eat a Kashi Go Lean roll or eat a little Special K protein cereal with unsweetened almond milk.  Most days I'm down to half of a Diet Coke and I drink hot or cold green tea-  I like Bigelow Green Tea with Mint.  You aren't supposed to use splenda or honey but I'm a rebel so I sometimes do.  Yes, I live on the edge.  I eat a lot of salad and veggie protein soup during the week for lunch.  I like egg whites or protein cereal for breakfast.

Am I at my ideal weight?  Nah.  I don't really care though because I have really great legs.  I do, it's genetic so thank you, mom and grandma.  As I get older, I'm much more comfortable with myself.  I like my body to feel strong, i like to have excellent posture, and I just like the stress relief exercise provides.  It's good for your mind and energy level.  Oh, AND Tracy lets your drink a little wine.  Just don't get drunk and eat Taco Bell at 2am.  It's easy to do- I KNOW.  I also know if you do happen to do that, always remember you are allowed to enjoy life any time you want.  Taco Bell in moderation.

One more thing.  I went to a Barre3 class in OKC last Monday and loved it.  Ballet, pilates, and yoga inpired barre work.  My hamstrings died as did every muscle in my arms but I didn't even realize how much it worked until I felt it the next day.  And the day after that.  I wanted to go again this week but I've been busy so next Monday it is.  You should definitely try it out if you live around the area.  The studio is cool too.  Duh, it's in Classen Curve so it's all fancy pants.

The end for now.  If you have any questions I didn't answer, don't hesitate to contact me or leave a comment.  These are the songs I'm working out to this week.  I change it up usually every 4 or 5 days.  I listen to a weird mix of artists.  I like to sing along and yes, pop songs are really easy to dance to.  I like to keep it fun.

My TAM Mat playlist:
East Harlem- Beirut
Summertime- Penny Hill
Daydreaming- Dark Dark Dark
Wild Palms- Sun Airway
Boy You Loved to Watch Me Cry- Madeline
Rachel-  Sleigh Bells
Cape Dory-  Tennis
Swimmers- Broken Social Scene
Infinity Guitars- Sleigh Bells

My TAM Cardio playlist:
Kids-  Sleigh Bells
Baby Say Goodbye- Wavves
3- Britney
Empire State of Mind- Jay-Z & Alicia Keys
Floating Vibes- Surfer Blood
I Follow Rivers-  Lykke Li
Last Friday Night- Katy Perry
Relator- Pete Yorn & Scarlett
Crazy for You-  Best Coast
My Prerogative- Britney
How I Met You- Jenn Grant


If you live around here, let's work out together!  If you're into that sort of thing.  I'm not doing dance cardio unless you do it to.

xo ♥ Jaguar Paw